bugs the infestations have reached my lofted bed; my cat is dying; im going to smoke with friend even though pot messes with me; i played noiz route; nitro+ captured what my autism feels like very well, but then they made aoba destroy all the autism inside of noiz and it made me very dissapointed; it was so strange seeing aoba as a third person sprite
dramatical murder
i met this boy that likes yaoi games and vtubers and he made me continue dmmd after ages. we dont even talk to eachotehr irl or sit with eachother in lunch, but we talk
a lot on discord and play games; im not going to bother him about it; & im not even going to talk about dmmd with him because he is too young for that
First, when one of the four essential conditions (coldness, hotness, dryness and wetness) becomes predominant.
Second, ulcers of the stomach cause headaches, because the cephalic (relating to the head) nerves and the stomach are connected.
Third, thick flatulence might accumulate in the stomach then later ascend to the head and cause headaches.
Fourth, headaches are sometimes caused by a tumor in the gastric veins that cause pain in the head, because the stomach and the head are connected.
Fifth, when the stomach is full of food it sometimes provokes headaches, as some of the food remains undigested.
Sixth, headaches sometimes occur after sexual intercourse because the body will then be weakened and thus exposed to the heat of the air.
Seventh, headaches sometimes occur after vomiting due to excessive dryness, or to accumulating gaseous materials (flatulence) that ascend to the head from the stomach.
Eighth, sometimes the hot weather and air provoke headaches.
Ninth, headaches are sometimes caused by the cold weather and from the vapor that accumulates in the head and which is unable to decompose.
Tenth, not having enough sleep also causes headaches.
Eleventh, Headaches are sometimes caused due to the pressure exerted on the head, such as when one carries a heavy object on his head.
Twelfth, excessive talking sometimes weakens the mind in a way that causes headaches.
Thirteenth, excessive movements and sports admit can also provoke headaches.
Fourteenth, sadness, depression, obsession and evil thoughts also provoke headaches.
Fifteenth, excessive hunger provokes headaches, as in this case', the excess gaseous materials (flatulence) that accumulate in the stomach ascend to the brain and provoke headaches.
Sixteenth, those who suffer from a tumor in the cerebral lining sometimes feel as if hammers are constantly pounding on their heads.
Seventeenth, fever also provokes headaches because of the intense heat that the body suffers from them. Allah knows best.
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There is a major lack of bl games that arent visual novel; I want gay persona.
i am making an essay on modern art but i just want to paint; heres my plan;
sefikuraerith (zack die) ship art with a bunch of other elements related to my slutty internet childhood;
the final fantasy is just to relate it to the past; it is not my childhood -- i got in to ff within the last 3/4 years -- but i want to relate my
current interests to it because i wont be able to pay attention to the painting otherwise; kingdom hearts was my childhood but i forgot everything
about it :3
text i dont feel sound knowing i could just die out of my control; i want to make art; im slipping away; im really going to die; i swear its not me; i cant control it; i really love my friend and i cant leave them alone;; imtrying my best; everything is lining up perfectly; we are so happy and speaking happily; i am really haunted with an audible higher conciousness
fly
a fly died in front of me; it landed in front of me on the white table; i thought it was alive so i poked it with a pen-- but it was dead; it took a lot of energy, but i blew it off the table; it
glided a little; it hit the floor; another living fly came to the wall next to me; i approached it but it did not move; i squashed it with my shoe; it hit on the floor;
to all the people wondering; my vision surrounded by static when i needed to speak; and then i spoke; and then my mom and my dad ignored me; but i had
really important things to say when i spoke--because i never speak; i guess this is what i want now; but there is some information they only know s& not me;
it is just slightly annoying
I'm not interested in keeping this page in such a neat form. I would like to try new things and styles for every entry. A few hours ago i was inside final fantasy 11; I was imagining a lot of things and keeping myself entertained; 'celebration' was not there; it was me in 'vanadiel'; everything is a work of art , and unwork of art, everything is art & very beautiful ; beauty doesnt exist it is a human construct; other animals do not see beauty; i do not belive in beauty because i am not human - maybe the body is - but it is not here for now; im speaking to you directly! i only use these words because there is not much better; art is there; i live for art; i am really nice; i think art will save the world; i love everything on this earth everything in my presence is art; if you are not me you need to repent and fix this world and start being art; i think the world will end soon when i die; but i suppose every whim i have has a purpose, even if i dont see it; to suspect is to disrespect; i respect my being and i respect the word of god, not your god, my god; i dont really belive in anything created by humans; i really have a purpose; even if i die i will still have worldly influence; nothing to lose and everything to gain
css i kind of blacked out today; i thought a lot about the website; the peace has been disturbed; oh, i did some pen-on-paper studying of webdev;
i NEVER do that; that's how much advanced css confuses me;
i drew up a potential home page design; i made this in the middle of my make-up exam; it lacks direction & thought & inspiration;
my mouth is salty; this is my day summary because these the only things i care about remembering
yaoi i'll likely update less frequently in the future, but as i work on the main site & shrines & stuff, updating this is the only thing on my mind; coding is so fun; this happens every time;
i wish i could update the site from the ide that neocities has, but hidden pages (like this) suddenly stopped working
im taking make-up exams today; it's a good day so far; whenever i get banished to a quiet room to do
strage schoolwork (ex: extra help arabic, meeting in library, make-up exam) i feel the best i could possibly be at school
i want to find new visual novels so i have cool anime pictures to tweet on my private twitter or paste here; currently, all i am interested
in is catboy yaoi -- thanks 2 loveless -- and i'm struggling to find any other catboy content to sate me; i will make a list of catboy content
after i am done with my art make-up exam.
i have to make a page dedicated to bl & nekomimi because these evil thoughts are plaguing me every day; my cats keep trying to have gay incest sex with eachother even though they are neutered; i asked my dad and my sister to test my food for poison and they refused so i couldn't eat at the restaurant; they had wifi, so i worked on the site
purpose 
i ignored all my schoolwork and midterms & worked on my website; this website is a good idea because i can keep my thoughts outside & not have to directly interact with anyone; it's like i'm working on a fallback
i asked my mom to let me change schools; i said "can i change schools? yes, i hate this school. yes, going back to the british system is fine." in reality, i am too autistic to leave the house every day; i wanted to mention being homeschooled & going to online school, but i didn't. i like to tell myself that if im not expending all my energy existing in the eyes of other people, i can put energy into my actual studies; it will be difficult to convince my parents to let me do online; last time i did online school i ditched the whole year & did absolutely no work; i know i'll die if i keep doing this; maybe i can convince her via 'suibaiting'